Lifetime Fat Loss

Sorry folks that it took awhile for me to post again. I have been so busy getting prepared and starting this diet. I am prepared to share my journey with everyone. And believe me I am on Day 3 and its already interesting. So the amazing program I am doing is called Lifetime Fat Loss. If you are interested in learning more their website is http://lifetimefatlosscenters.com/ and they have an awesome video that gives you a little information. If you decide you are interested in joining me with this journey. Dr. Joe at Rejuvenate Mind Body Wellness Center is amazing!

What made me decide on this diet, with this company was the fact, I needed something that would change not only how I eat now but forever. Something that was going to retrain my way of thinking and help my body work for me. So Friday was my big meeting day, I paid for my year of diet fun, did my measurements, and before and after pictures. Which here is what those look like?

So any guesses on what this big beautiful woman weighs? Well shockingly I weigh a whole lot more, than I even think I look. I come in at a sweet(i am full of sugar) 298.4. Yes it is a lot of extra weight, for someone my size. I should really only weigh around 144lbs. Now for someone like me who hasn't weight 144lbs since probably middle school, it seems very unattainable. But my overall goal is to get a 150lbs off my frame. So my first goal is 20lbs and seems very doable.

So Saturday was day 1 and by far my favorite day of the program, I can't go into a lot of detail, about certain steps of the diet.. But I got to eat a lot of yummy foods. Lets just say we had On the Border and Ice Cream. I am already dreading the lack of yummy Mexican in my diet the next 6 weeks. Now on Day 2, not as much fun. I am hungry as I sit here typing this, thinking on how much I miss being able to eat anything I want when I want. Sigh.. stupid large tummy and lack of self control. But so far I have stuck to it, I am trying my hardest to make each of these days count.

Day 3 hasn't been the hardest due to food, but the hardest due to loss. Today is the 2 year anniversary of my amazing Daddy's passing. My daddy was one of my strongest supporters and always worried about me and my weight. So it's only fitting that this day be today. It has been so hard not to try and eat my sadness, but I am happy to say I have stayed strong today. I miss him more than anything but I am doing this also for him. I know he watched over me and would be so excited that this is happening.

I am not doing this alone. I have an amazing husband and supporter with me all the way, my sweet kiddo who really at 8 has no clue what is going on, but it always ready to give me hugs when I need them, My mom and Sister who have stood by me thru many of my struggles, You all, and the most important of them all GOD. I know that I can't do this without him. In moments that I struggle and think those Cheetos look so good I remember Philippians 4:13 " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Even eat I am sure that nasty celery in the fridge.

Till next time: Faith, Trust, Pixie Dust, and Me! 

The First Step

The first step..................................... isn't it usually admitting you have a problem. So I guess with that it's time to admit it. I am FAT! Yes that is my problem, and yes I am not a fan of that word, but its true. I can try and make it sound nice and sugar coat it and call myself pleasantly plump, but that's just it, I would be icing it over. I would be making it ok. And its not, and has never been ok. I have been telling myself for years, years, and years that I am happy with me. And yes I love me on the inside, but I don't love me on the outside. I am FAT! I don't want people to tell me no your not, or you are so beautiful, none of that. I want people to read this and see that I realize the issue and I don't want to push it aside anymore.

So I have admitted I have a problem, it's not a small one and it's one I have been carrying and dealing with for awhile. This problem is not going to be a quick and easy fix. It took 35 years to get me here, and its not going to go away over night. Not only am I fat, but I also have type 2 Diabetes, Facet Arthropathy(degenerative arthritis) in my lower back, iron deficiency, and vitamin D deficiency. I can barely walk right now my back has gotten so bad and its easier to just not go anywhere. But what does that mean for my amazing family, for my son and husband. Don't they need someone that can keep up? 

So I am ready to make the change, I am ready to take a step forward towards freedom. Freedom to walk(maybe even run) wherever my feet want to go, the ability to keep up with my husband and son, the lack of pain and hopefully say goodbye to all the medication I take on a daily basis. So starting this Friday, I meet with my amazing Chiropractor Dr. Joe Symes at Rejuvenate Mind Body and Wellness center in Lee's Summit to begin a journey to a better me. The same on the inside but different on the outside.

So what is this journey you may be wondering, I am going to be starting a diet that focuses on me, it focuses on my metabolism and my DNA. I have tried so many different programs with little to no success, what I need is a program that focuses on the root of the problem... ME. If this doesn't work I will have to move onto more drastic measures of weight loss surgery. This is not something I want at all, I don't want to be cut open or deal with all those risks. I want to be strong and do this the way I need to, but its going to take more than just me.

So the name..... the name of my blog. Its so true, You need Faith, Trust, and Pixie Dust. In order for me to make a huge change and do what needs to be done, I need to put my faith in the strength God will give me, Trust in myself and the people guiding me on this journey, and Pixie Dust cause I know this ain't going to be easy for me. And then as you will notice my web name is faithtrustpixiedustandme and that's because for any of this to work and happen its first going to take ME!

So I am asking for all ya all's help. I need prayers and encouragement. I can do this and I will do this and I am going to succeed. So this is just my first post, tune in to the next one after Friday and I will tell you a bit about the program and gasp..... my weight. I want to be accountable and I want people to be able to see with me how much I am loosing and what I am really going through. So Faith, Trust, Pixie Dust, and Me................................... what happens next we will see.