The First Step

The first step..................................... isn't it usually admitting you have a problem. So I guess with that it's time to admit it. I am FAT! Yes that is my problem, and yes I am not a fan of that word, but its true. I can try and make it sound nice and sugar coat it and call myself pleasantly plump, but that's just it, I would be icing it over. I would be making it ok. And its not, and has never been ok. I have been telling myself for years, years, and years that I am happy with me. And yes I love me on the inside, but I don't love me on the outside. I am FAT! I don't want people to tell me no your not, or you are so beautiful, none of that. I want people to read this and see that I realize the issue and I don't want to push it aside anymore.

So I have admitted I have a problem, it's not a small one and it's one I have been carrying and dealing with for awhile. This problem is not going to be a quick and easy fix. It took 35 years to get me here, and its not going to go away over night. Not only am I fat, but I also have type 2 Diabetes, Facet Arthropathy(degenerative arthritis) in my lower back, iron deficiency, and vitamin D deficiency. I can barely walk right now my back has gotten so bad and its easier to just not go anywhere. But what does that mean for my amazing family, for my son and husband. Don't they need someone that can keep up? 

So I am ready to make the change, I am ready to take a step forward towards freedom. Freedom to walk(maybe even run) wherever my feet want to go, the ability to keep up with my husband and son, the lack of pain and hopefully say goodbye to all the medication I take on a daily basis. So starting this Friday, I meet with my amazing Chiropractor Dr. Joe Symes at Rejuvenate Mind Body and Wellness center in Lee's Summit to begin a journey to a better me. The same on the inside but different on the outside.

So what is this journey you may be wondering, I am going to be starting a diet that focuses on me, it focuses on my metabolism and my DNA. I have tried so many different programs with little to no success, what I need is a program that focuses on the root of the problem... ME. If this doesn't work I will have to move onto more drastic measures of weight loss surgery. This is not something I want at all, I don't want to be cut open or deal with all those risks. I want to be strong and do this the way I need to, but its going to take more than just me.

So the name..... the name of my blog. Its so true, You need Faith, Trust, and Pixie Dust. In order for me to make a huge change and do what needs to be done, I need to put my faith in the strength God will give me, Trust in myself and the people guiding me on this journey, and Pixie Dust cause I know this ain't going to be easy for me. And then as you will notice my web name is faithtrustpixiedustandme and that's because for any of this to work and happen its first going to take ME!

So I am asking for all ya all's help. I need prayers and encouragement. I can do this and I will do this and I am going to succeed. So this is just my first post, tune in to the next one after Friday and I will tell you a bit about the program and gasp..... my weight. I want to be accountable and I want people to be able to see with me how much I am loosing and what I am really going through. So Faith, Trust, Pixie Dust, and Me................................... what happens next we will see.