So..... I kind of had a breakdown

So yes I know it's been way to long since I have posted. And yes I am so sorry for this. I kind of had myself a little bit of a mental breakdown, and needed to step away for a short time. I am still doing good and am trying hard to make good decisions. But I needed a break. So what brought all of this on you may ask. Well.................

So on Monday of last week, the 15th I met with Dr. Joe for my mid three week phase 3 visit. I had been weighing at home all week and my weight wasn't really dropping but going up and plateauing. Little did I know from carrying my scale to work during the week, somehow I had messed it up and had actually lost a tiny bit of weight. So frustrating. This prompted Dr. Joe to tell me he felt I needed to do phase 2 again at the end of the 3 weeks. I told him OK, and I would be willing to do this.

But inside I was cringing and getting upset and not happy at all about having to go through phase 2 again for another 41 days of not eating anything that I like, especially when I was so close to phase 4 the DNA based eating. So I had a mental breakdown. I stepped away a bit and ate things that I had missed. But the nice thing was, I didn't go to wild and crazy. Yes I had pizza and Freddy's, and I enjoyed them but I really tried to stop when I got full. I took a week off from exercising and just really enjoyed a chance to eat the foods I missed, but not go to wild and crazy.

So what does all this mean? Well Dr. Joe checked on me midweek and I told him that I just needed a chance to step back, a break from the constant diet. I needed to have this mental breakdown. I told him that I would be ready to go on Friday and I was going to go into the next 41 days at full force. So on this Friday 8/26/16 I will be ready to go. I will be back on supplements and no breakfast. Back to eating the same things over and over again cause I am to picky of an eater. But I will do it and I will focus and we will get this thing done.

What does this mean for exercising? Not bad things at all. It means that we will be slightly modifying my phase 2 repeat diet so that I can still exercise. This to me is so important so that I can keep up the exercise. I want to so badly to succeed in this diet and I feel like I need to exercise as well. I am pleased to say that I have been able to wear flat shoes with very little issues, mainly just tired feet. But no back problems!! This is a celebration as to the last few years I had to wear tennis shoes and no cute shoes.

When I get done with the next 2 weeks, I will excitingly be 2 weeks away from Disney. I hope to be down to 250 by then and am so excited to get there and getting so close. I did gain weight this week, that I had taken off. Right now I am up 3.4lbs. It sucks but I know that I can work hard and get it back off. And I plan on working at it! So just if you get a chance say a quick prayer for me this Friday! I look forward to updating you every week like I had been before with the first phase 2. Who knows maybe we will see a drop of clothing side again!!!

So I will leave you now with a picture of me getting my gym on! LOL