Struggling but still going!

So as of Thursday we made it thru 6 weeks. It wasn't the easiest 6 weeks but we did it. My amazing and loving caring husband surprised me by having the most beautiful flowers delivered to work telling me how proud he was of me. I had been at work since 2 am and was so very tired so when they came I got all teary eyed and emotional.

So Friday was Day 1 of the next 3 weeks. I got to eat breakfast which is kind of weird now. I am so not used to eating before noon anymore. This also was the day I started exercising and worked out with a trainer for an hour. I wanted him to show me how to use the machines. Trainers are to expensive to use all the time. So I got what I needed and am going to continue on my own. Friday night was also the night I had waited 6 weeks for!!! Dr Joe gave me permission to have Mexican food! So we went to my all time favorite Mexican restaurant Chuy's. It was delicious! I got fajitas, so yummy and ate about 22 chips. I kept count. I had 2 more than I originally planned on. Chuy's salsa is my favorite and is made fresh daily so I got some to go to use with my taco salads at home.

So the Struggling part. I am glad so very glad I got to have Mexican night but this week since then has been a nightmare. I am not loosing weight this week, I have been gaining. I went from 264.6 Friday morning to 267.4 on Saturday and sadly its still been going up, I got up to 270.2 on Monday. Now today thankfully I have gone down to 269.2, I am thankful to be dropping again but this is beyond stressful. It makes you feel some what like you have failed. But I have been trying to remember that in this short time I have accomplished so much and that with God I can do anything! 

I am still working hard and keeping going but when you are working so hard everyday and it keeps going up like that it gets super overwhelming. I have literally worked out in some form everyday since Friday. Last night we went for walk and I walked the fastest I have in a long time and we did 1.42 miles. The best part is I kept up with Matt the entire time(which I never do) and my back didn't hurt at all! This was such an awesome feeling and just such a relief! 

So I have a funny to share from yesterday. I called to set up a time to get my dress altered for Mom's wedding and I need to make it as close to the date as possible to make sure it fits the best. So the lady said the latest I could do was August 29th. And I said OK, that works and she told me I was going to have to stop on that date. And I asked her what, and she said loosing weight. I was shocked for a moment and I said to her.... Lady I have 150 lbs to loose and I will not be stopping. If I stop now, I will probably not start up again. And that is just not an option. She said OK, but you could tell she wasn't happy with my response. This chick is on a mission and dress fitting 100% perfect is not going to stand between me and my goal of getting fit and healthy. 

Well, I am sure I will think of more to share. I go on Monday for my next weigh in, I look forward to sharing all the information with you all. Hope you have a great rest of the week! 

Faith, Love, Pixie Dust and Me!